A Hero Becomes a Legend

Today I had to watch my grandfather being buried. It was an overall very tough day for not only myself, but for the rest of the family. The service in Harrisonville was wonderful, very simple and it celebrated his life to the best that it could. My brother Chad gave a short speech about grandpa. It was well was wonderful. I was handling myself very well. I had my stand-in husband Aaron Ringen at my side, which was nice since Clint was gone. Aaron stayed last night in the guest room/office. When the old football players of my grandfather started crying that's when it really hit me, that my grandfather was gone. Although i know that he's watching over me and my family, it's still very surreal to think that he's gone. I know that it will hit me one of these days, and my tears will continue to flow.

While on our way to the burial site, i had the iPod on random, and the following song came up, and I thought that it was not by accident. here's the lyrics:

"Shadows In Red" by: Sevendust

Lookin out the window of pain
I see clearly now your face
Something so pure
Something I'm sure will be lost

I'm staring at the shadows in red
Sends me chills now
I see clearly everything except your face

I'm lonely scared to be lonely
Thought until death meant
My fears were safe within now they begin
To be lonely scared of the only
Thing I knew best so I thought I knew everything
Until now I see I'm lost and lonely

Shatters everything in my head consumes me
Blinded by one thing obsessed with the need to be loved
Screams become whispers instead assuming
I know I'm losing all the things closest to me

I'm lonely scared to be lonely
Thought until death meant
My fears were safe within
Now they begin to be lonely
Scared of the only thing
I knew best
So I thought I knew everything

Until now I see
I'm lost and lonely
Angels swirl around me
So now I know I'm not alone
Only scared to be lonely
Thought until death meant
My fears were safe within now they begin
To be lonely scared of the only
Thing I knew best so
I thought I knew everything
Until now I see I'm lost and lonely

-- Grandpa, I loved you so much, and you taught me so much. While standing at the grave sight today I remembered when you taught me how to drive in that very spot. You meant the world to me, and you will continue to live on in my heart, and to everyone that I meet.