Grandma

Grandma is back in the hospital after being home for only  a week.  The oxygen they put her on isn't work like it should because she still has fluid built up in her lungs.  Mom has a had a very stressful week taking care of grandma.  Grandma has been really weak, and has not been eating.

I'll be heading to knob later this afternoon.  I have to go to the Truman Library for my graduate class, then I'm going to have my mom come and get me sometime between 4 and 5.

My grandma means the world to me.  I used to spend the summers with her when I was little.  She introduced me to the love of shopping.  She even let me go to the mall alone in Joplin one summer.  I was still in high school, newly 16 year old driver.  She gave me a limit to spend and her credit card.

I know shes tired, and lonely.  I know she misses my grandfather like crazy.  But is it selfish of me to want her here when my child is born?  I want her to meet her great-grandson. I want to be able to tell my son that his great-grandmother was here when he was born.  I know it's selfish.  I just want him to meet her.