Week Ending

As my week of Spring Break comes to an end, I'm finding it harder and harder to want to go back to work.  It's weeks like these, where I get to spend ALL my time with Dader that I want to be a stay-at-home mom.  I think about all of the things I've missed out on working 10+ hour days 5 days a week, and then the occasional Saturday School.  He's growing soo fast these days, and learning so much, that it makes me sad to know that I haven't been there for a lot of his firsts.  Yes, I got to be there when he started crawling, walking, running, and all the major milestones.  But I haven't been there for the little ones.  I'm thankful that Clint has been there through the whole way though.  He's gotten the chance to be the one that does witness the firsts, and I'm glad that it was him, and not a daycare worker, or a nanny. 

That's the benefit I see, of having an income where one person can stay at home and take care of the child and not have to pawn them off on some childcare professional.  I'm thankful that Clint has a career that can allow this sort of thing.  His career has suffered since having a kid, he can't work as many hours on the computer as he could before, and his product amount has slowed quite a bit, but man if he isn't one of the best fathers that I know.  He's there for Dade's bumps, bruises, and falls (and there have been loads!), as Dade gets older, it becoming easier for Clint to get work done, but I wish we could switch the roles, so he can do more of the things that he loves.

Being away this week with Dade, has given him the chance to be "single" again, and I know that he's gotten loads down.  I also know that the stuff that's he is working on right now is some of the BEST stuff he's written.  I know that you get better as you go, but the ideas that he has coming out of his brain right now, and making it very streamlined, and easy to run is simple brilliant.  I can't wait for the world to know the Clint Krause material that I've seen in the last year.  It's simply going to blow people's minds off their head!   I've also noticed how much my life is incomplete without Clint around.  Yeah, I can make it through the day alone with Dade (and still have energy at the end of the day), but not having that special someone to say goodnight to, or eat dinner with, or simply watch a movie with at the end of the day kinda sucks!  In our 10 years together I can safely say that my love for him has only grown.  Sure he can drive me crazy (because his minds it always running in game mode), but it makes for a fun and interesting life!

Here's to my WONDERFUL week with my son!  And my AMAZING husband!