The Verge

So I had ANOTHER job interview yesterday, that once again has has the same results of all the other interviews. a big fat no job offer. I'm so tired of hearing the same line, we want someone with more teaching experience. Fine I get it, you want someone who's been teaching for awhile. HOWEVER... you receive my resume in the mail BEFORE the interview, you clearly see I just finished school, looking for my FIRST job... Why even call me and give me a tiny chance of hope? I'm so down in the dumps, that I'm not even sure I want to continue to look for a teaching job. I've applied at EVERY district in the area, I contact them in some sort of fashion at least once a week if not more for certain districts, and yet here it is almost the middle of May and I still have not had a job offer. Very depressing. Clint says to keep postitive. that's really hard to do at the moment. Crying comes easily these days when another "sorry the job went to someone else" comes through on the other line, or through a very nicely written letter on the district's letter head, not signed, but stamped by the person giving the rejection.

Yes, at least I'm teaching at Sylvan, and I LOVE every minute of it. Without a doubt, if I didn't have that. I would be going completely insane wanting to know why no one wants to hire me to teach. At least Sylvan loves how I'm doing, and they tell me that everyday. Even today when I was late. Not by my own fault, but was rewarding for being a trooper during a mis-understanding. Walking in the door from an appointment at 415, knowing I have to leave in 15minutes to head into work, to find a message for Sylvan saying I was told the wrong teaching times. Can be pretty upsetting after my previous phone calls today. I was told I was to teach 630 and 730 instructional hours. Meaning I needed to leave at 430, pull books at 530 and then teach. WRONG i needed to leave at 230, pull at 330 and teach at 430 530 & 630. Needless to say I lost a full hour of teaching, and other teachers had to cover for me. I felt so horrible, that I was on the verge of tears, for the second time today, when i was calling them now at 425.

They were awesome about the whole thing. They figured I didnt get the message when i didn't show up at my normal 1 hour before teaching, so they had pulled my books, and moved my 430 students. I was rattled, and somewhat disorganized for my 530 hour. Luckily I only had 2 students, so I could somewhat relax and be ready for the 630 hour and my three students.

I've made a promise to myself and it goes like this:

"If I am unable to get a teaching job for the 2006-2007 school year I, Cassie Krause, will take my GRE, in the fall, and begin Graduate School in Jan. of 2007."

It's too late to take the GRE now and start in Aug, plus this gives me a total of 1 year of from school before starting my Masters.

I just want some security for Clint and myself. I feel like now, I'm not providing the security for us because I'm not pulling my weight income wise. I don't get paid until the end of this month. So it's been really rough. We are trying to save for our big trip to GenCon, a trip that I really need, however, if our income doesn't pick up I might not be able to go. Clint needs to go for his writing career, I want to go for a final vacation of the summer. Hopefully this will work out, or something for Christ's sake.

I hate being of the verge of utter insanity